Faith Tests
Once
I said something—a small, off-handed comment—that made a friend of mine think
that perhaps I wasn’t “saved.” A few years later, a professor at Fuller
Seminary wanted to check to see why I wasn’t “where the other students were”
when it came to matters of faith. Failing other peoples’ faith tests has been a
reoccurring event in my adult life.
Have you ever realized the Bible or your church was
wrong and chosen to believe in a good and loving God of justice anyway?
Follow-ups
might include, have you ever been deeply disturbed by the Bible or made an
outcast in your church? Have you ever found Jesus outside of the church and
chosen to follow that Christ (no matter what she looked like) instead of the
one preached from the pulpit?
The
Bible lets me down almost daily. Today’s passage was from Genesis 8 and 9 after
God destroys his own creation and then preserves it again through Noah and his
family. He invites the family and all the living beings on the boat onto dry
land. “Then God said to Noah and to his sons with him: “ . . . I establish my
covenant with you.”
God
spoke to the men in the group and blatantly ignored the four women—four of the
eight humans reportedly alive in the story. Why? Where are the women? Did God
simply turn away from them and to the men? Personally, I picture the unnamed
wives doing the actual work of the operation while the men took a smoke break
and chatted covenants. But surely God should have bothered to include them in
the covenant, right?
The
short answer is, God did but the men who wrote and codified those texts didn’t
realize it. The longer answer is context is important, the mere mention of the
wives at all in a text so old
indicates their radical inclusion in the salvific work God was inviting Noah’s
family into. But Christians who read a story that indicates God only speaks to
men and promises things to men must reject
statements like “the Bible says it, so that’s good enough for me.”
The
fact that I fail many Christians’ faith tests is no surprise to me, since many
“Christians” fail mine. So much so that I’ve decided it’s not a test of faith
so much as a test of denomination. More precisely, it’s a diagnostic for
understanding what someone means when they claim Christianity as their
religion.
Which
diagnostics we each use are important (and fascinating), but more important is
how we react to others’ tests results. Fear and condemnation are not ideal. But
neither is a shrug and the easy response, “You do you.” How should we respond
when we discover someone else is the “wrong” kind of Christian? What are the
next steps after the diagnostic test? What happens to the body of Christ when
one member decides that the other member is diseased and needs to be amputated?
Been there. I usually read the Bible and feel like I'm getting to know God in a way he isn't represented in the church. I was once invited to write an Advent devotional -- and I kind of reflected on the passage in Mark where a father is asking Jesus to heal his son and he says, "I believe! Help my unbelief." And I pray that a lot. Because I'm constantly in this state of wanting to believe in God for who he is in the Bible, rather than who he is in some of the sermons I heard growing up or who he is in some of the conversations I hear in church. And this woman came up to me and put her hand on my shoulder and looked at me all sadly and said, "I read your devotional. I'm praying for you."
ReplyDeleteAnd I was like ... thanks? But it makes me feel really ashamed and frustrated. Because people talk about God like, "Oh, of course he loves women. Of course he loves immigrants. And of course he heals people." But then their actions and lifestyle and conversations don't line up with the reality of that love and power and grace. And I'm really just standing there thinking, DO YOU KNOW HIM? DO I KNOW HIM?
Anyway, that's my soapbox comment and I obviously give faith tests to others too.
Yikes.
Thanks for sharing this.